On the occasion of your eighth birthday I sit to write you a note to let you know how much I love you.
You are such a spunky feisty girlie girl. You are the perfect balance and I hope you never lose the confidence you have right now. I often just stare at you while we talk and think, "I want to remember this moment forever." You are captivating and I love it.
You have struggled with anxiety your whole life, but this year you became conscious that other people don't have the same challenges. You have accepted this and are trying your best. This year you were able to verbalize the difference and I'll never forget hearing you say for the first time, "You don't know what it is like in my brain, I can't do this." You are right that I don't know what it is like in your brain, but listen closely my sweet girl... You can do anything. No one said it would be easy, but it is worth it.
You are incredibly lucky to have a huge family and a large network of supporters. You have a family who loves you to the moon and back and you have a large bio family who loves you too. Adoption is a miraculous thing, AK. When you were placed in my arms, I knew that a missing piece of my heart had been found. We searched the world over for you, not just any baby, for you. There were many days filled with tears, heartache, and frustration as we tried to find you. We wondered if you were in China, or maybe Russia, but those doors closed on us. Little did we know, you were right here in Southern California, and you were anxious to come out and greet the world, arriving as early as you possibly could. Your birthmom is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. We were privileged to be able to have lunch with her this month, just us girls. You asked lots of questions about your birth, because it is fascinating to you. You wanted to know everything your birthmom craved, and you loved telling me later... "Mom, I loved tortilla chips from the very beginning."
For your birthday you received a care package from your birth mom filled with handpicked goodies for the whole family She wrote you a note and this part jumped out at me.
That is quite possibly the most beautiful thing I have ever read. AK, you are so loved, and I want you to remember that even though your life can be hard, you are loved.