Part of an ongoing project called, "The Yes Project", where I resolve to say YES more to opportunities that come my way. Click here to see the other posts.
I found a bunch of draft posts that I had forgotten about because I got distracted with our Super Ultimate Mega Summer. This event took place last July. **Warning this post contains snake pictures and violence.**
"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power,
and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free."
I am terrified of snakes, especially rattlesnakes, so much so, that when we were in escrow to buy the Chalet, I woke up in a cold sweat one night screaming, "We can't move!" I realized that the hillside probably had snakes as residents and there is no way I can live in a house that was "snake adjacent". Mr. Man knows me, understands my fear, and we had the Juans build a "snake wall" around the perimeter of the property to keep snakes out.
|Can you see it hiding in there?|
I jumped out of the way and ran into the house through the back door, then out through the front door and down the hill. Screaming and waving my arms the whole way, and then I got my phone out and dialed Mr. Man, because here is a little confession. I am the worst person to have in an emergency. That whole "Fight or Flight" response... I'm definitely a flight as in, I run and I run far.
Mr. Man is in a meeting but answers and tells me "First of all, just leave it alone and it will scurry away. Second, Um... where are you? Did you leave the kids alone?" Oh shoot, I just ran out of the house leaving them alone. I ran back up to the house and decided I couldn't just go on with my day knowing there was a rattlesnake living so close to our house. I took a peek and the snake was still there sitting on the stone step behind our gate.
I had that moment, where I knew this was MY moment, to confront my fear and channel my inner warrior woman. I could conquer this fear and protect my family. My year of "Yes" was all about facing things that were uncomfortable. I brought Mr. Boy out and had him stand on the safe side of the snake wall, and gave him my phone and told him to call Dad if anything happened. Mr. Boy was encouraging, "Mom, you can do this!" and then he started taking a video of the whole thing. I summoned all my courage and killed the snake, who had remained coiled up.