Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Not my favorite.

Whenever my children don't like something, I encourage them to say, "This is not my favorite." instead of, "I hate this." or "This is gross/ugly/disgusting...etc." I can honestly say, "I hate this." While I'm ridiculously grateful for the friend who dropped them by. I hate that I am reading these, to prepare my family for the challenge my mom is facing. Her breast cancer has returned with a vengeance, and the outlook is grim. If only they sold miracles on eBay.

Last year I read this great book called The Middle Place and it describes my situation perfectly. I'm a mom with my own family, yet I'm still my Mother's Daughter. I'm in the middle. It's a tough spot to be in, there is a constant pull on both sides, as I want to be there for everyone.

When I heard the news, the first thing that went through my mind is, "I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this." I wanted to scream it from the rooftops. I'm calling on everyone I know to say a prayer, send good thoughts, vibes, whatever you believe. I'm not ready to lose my mom, she is such a vibrant person, I just...... I don't want to do this.

12 comments:

Noelle Reese said...

You are in my prayers! I lost my Mom in '06. It was the hardest thing I have dealt with so far. I will tell you it's awful, but it does get better. I don't cry every time I think about her anymore. I miss her every day. I'll be praying for your Mom and everyone who loves her.

Ellen said...

You're in my heart and prayers. It's not easy watching your mom go through the pain of illness and preparing to move on to the next life. There will be good memories that come from it. May God bless you and your mom. She will always hold a special place in your heart, and you in hers.

**MIGNONNE** said...

Oh Wendy I am sorry to read this. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you will find the comfort that you need.

earlfam said...

How's your Mom with all of this? I she accepting and ready to go or is she fighting?

I can only imagine how hard that must be. But of course, someday I will know. We all will. I'm so sorry that this is your time!

Julee... said...

I'm so sorry to read this. May you find comfort in knowing a stranger in Ohio is praying for you, your mom, and your whole family!

Jenny said...

Oh Wendy....I'm so sorry to hear this. What a hard thing to prepare for. You and your mom will be in our prayers.

Brooke said...

Thinking about you a lot lately - wish I could make it better :(

Randy and Candy said...

Wendy, I am so sorry. I will definitely be praying for you and your mom.

Cindy said...

Oh, my Wendy friend. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Big hugs to you especially as you go between supporting your mom, comforting your children and trying to find peace yourself.

Dan said...

Wendy,
Your family and your mother are in our thoughts daily. I remember when your dad introduced your mother into our family we all knew she was someone who was special. She was a cut above everyone else. Your grandmother Neva was so proud of all the things your dad had accomplished in his life before he met your mother but when Grandmother Neva met your mom for the first time she knew that Jacks greatest achievement in his life was when he married your mother. That success was magnified many times over by the children (You, Kent and Mark) they raised together. This is not an ending but merely a milepost on the road of life which continues well beyond the mortal life. -My heart weighs heavy for you. -Uncle Dan

Cimblog (tm) said...

Call me any time you need to yell with someone listening. I'm pretty good at it, I think you've noticed!

laura said...

oh man, i am so sorry. i feel like such a crappy friend - we haven't chatted and here you are going through this... let me know if you need ANYTHING at all at any time. love you.